ONE WEEK UNTIL MY ADVENTURE BEGINS...!

Yesterday someone said to me: "Isn't that weird? You think the life over here, with all your loved ones and everyone you know, needs to stop while you're away. But it doesn't. Life goes on, as well as in Australia as in Germany. It might seem impossible, that they will live a life without you - but they will." That made me think and I came to the conclusion, that the time abroad is the perfect opportunity to become independent. Independent from your parents, independent from their money, independent from your home. You will start a whole new life and you are the only one that can define how it will be like.

But now on to the real stuff: The last weeks before the departure. The closer it comes, the harder it gets to catch a clear thought. When I am not thinking about what I have to do before I go /doctor appointment here, farewell party there), I'll think about what I need to buy before I go (toothbrush, contact lenses...). At the same time I'm waiting for my backpack to arrive, so that I can start packing - but it won't be delivered on time as it seems. Well, and then there are these thoughts, which make me so nervous and excited and sad and happy and insecure at the same time. Will I miss home as much as I expect? Or will I be so focused on building my new life, that I have no time to even think about what I miss about home?  I can't think about a day when I didn't have mixed feelings in the last few weeks. There are these people, that come to me and ask the same questions over and over again: "Are you excited? Nervous? Insecure? That sounds so scary! Are you going alone there? No way, I wouldn't do that ever, I would be to scared!" Well, what are you supposed to answer? "Yes, I am excited and nervous. Yes, I am going on my own, but I have a lovely family waiting there for me, so I am basically not alone. And yes, I am doing this to overcome my fears." Actually it wasn't a big deal for me, before all these people told my about their insecurities. I will live in another country for a couple of months, speak another language, won't be able to see my friends and family /exept on Skype, FaceTime etc.) and will begin a new life. What's the matter, though?

In the end I can say, that it's totally normal to be nervous (I guess). You don't know what you can expect from this new country. And this ignorance is the only reason, why you (and some other people) have these insecurities. But I think, that once you're there, you can remove these bad/nervous thoughts from your mind and enjoy your stay as much as in your good/excited expectations. For me, I will enjoy my last days with my family and closest friends as much as I can and try to not think about my fears, because in the end: LIFE GOES ON. 

xo Greta